i felt sho stupid now.
so all e while i was being tricked by you.

by ignoring mi.
would you feel better?

by shutting mi out of yr world.
would you feel more comfortable?

so am i a doll to you?
jus keep if you want.
jus throw when you dun need mi

to you. i am jus a irritatng little bug.
dun ever think i want 2 cling on u.
i dread e thought of that.
yeah.
continue to throw mi out of world.
continue to ignore mi.
so be it.
see if i care.
yeah.
jus my luck to meet u out of so many ppls.
please.
dun think too highly of yourself.
you r one of the worst ppl i ever met.

ha. this person sounds like a guy right? but in fact is a girl. yeah. think about wad i have said. take time to think about it if you happen to see it.
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i am still sleepy now.

anyway. went class chalet ytd. though cun stay overnight but overall was still fun. =D
ha. reached pasir ris mrt at 3.30 plus. n i was sho blind dat i fail to notice ql sherry n mervis. lol. or maybe becoz i am too short?

is been so long since i went to a chalet. so yeah. was quite excited bout it.

Ivan n Jin zhu started the fire. they were so pro. if it was mi to do this bbq stuff. i suggest we go out n eat cox i would probably take ages to even set up e pit. mus compliment that the food were veh nice. i mean. everything was cooked. ha.

watched princess hour in the chalet. wah. missed out e part they went to the bear museum. haix.

after that. we played truth or dare. ha. most peep chose truths.
the bottle seemed to like amal, sherry n ivan a lot. lolx.
anyway. i kena twice. fers, i was made to drink half a cup of coke. luckily i dun reject carbonated drinks. so it wasn't really that bad. but now my stomach had to suffer.
den. i said HI to the group of boys beside our chalet. haha. that wasn't too bad either.
i rmb someone had to jump near the pool, shouting: my fish! my fish!
another had to go over to the opposite group of students, and whisper: shhh. there's a moon..
one had to knock on the lid of a rubbish bin. den open the lid. n asked: anyone home?
ha. another sang school song to the palm tree.

went off ealier to catch the 10 pm bus.
so ya. this is one of the best outing i ever had. =p

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wah haha~
there's a veh cute game in mini clip. call club penguin. ha.
can play cute cute game. n dress yr penguin in yr cute cute shirt. lolx.
jus met a male penguin. keep throwing snow ball at mi. ha. den he became my buddy.
he told mi he is a kid.
so he probably wun blieve he is playing with a seventeen yr old girl.
this game is jus so cute n cute!!!

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jus returned from vivo city.
met meng jiat in e aljunied mrt station. and for once in my whole life. i ran after e train. lolx.
n guess hu i saw in e cabin. Jonathan. ha. he was probably ignoring mi or din see mi. haix. nvm.
ha. n my dear lao gong is late. so mj n i end up crapping at harbour front mrt while waiting for her.
the mall is really really huge. we were exploring the 2nd floor while finding food. is liked super super super big plus there r lots n lots of people flooding the place. so in the end. we actually walked to the harbour centre for lunch.
the sky garden in vivo rock!!! ha. i love e sea n e strong winds. ha. is indeed a gr8t place for couple. wherever we walked. there will be couples. couples n couples. lol. n theres a veh big pool. ha. many ppl actually walked inside the pool. e water was so clear n calm. so cooling.
den we went ben n jerry. wah. the ice cream is fabulous. n the big big cow. i wanted to take a photo with it. but after much thought. i felt rather stupid.
three of us den sat at the 'platform' n chat. is nice to chat with yr friends about every thing under the sun. esp u could have the perfect scenery of the sea. sentosa. the merlion. the ships. n the cable cars.
n i love cable cars. think is one of the best way to travel. lol.
on e way home. cun believe i chased the bus again.

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woo hoo~~~
today is e release of overall results. ha. cun blief e teachers moderate until my results look so different.
General paper (D)- if onli i can score this wif out moderation.
Economics (E)- dub. i jus cun do well in this subj.
Biology (C)-surprisingly. ha.
Mathematics (A)- not bad i guess.
Chemistry(A)- glad that i ace it. lol.
somehow i feel that this result is so fake. so diff from wad my papers really show.
anyway. i no longer in honour roll le. realli become toilet roll le.
but nvm. sandhya. nxt yr we mus work harder k?den both of us shall enter honour roll together.
anyway. my position dropped from 21st to 45th. lol. see how much i slack.
me, mj n my dear laogong going to vivo city tml. ha. prepare to shop until we drop.

hm. noe quite a lot of ppl retaining. i sincerely hope that u won get retain. i dun wanna c any friend of mine retaining. well. dere r some hu kena promoted who still wan to withdraw frm school. i hope dey make a right choice. all e best to u all.

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i like the bus driver who fetch mi to school almost everyday.
he is so polite and caring.
well.
that's because somehow he resemble my deceased grandpa.
It's been ten years.
ten years since i last saw him.
i remember him as a great husband. a great daddy. and a great grandpa.
he loves my grandma.
when she scold him for some small matters.
he would never shout back eventhough it might not be his fault.
he remained silence after the operation.
he lost his voice box.
no longer able to laugh with mi.
for once.
silence is gold.
he used to bring mi out after working for 1 whole day.
we would go to e nearby coffee shop.
sat down and ordered one cup of coffee.
we shared a bun together.
before the night ended.
we would rushed home or prepared to hear the scolding from my grandma.
after dinner.
he would peel one orange for mi.
i love orange.
then. we would pull e chair right infront of the television.
n watch e series together.
noone dotes mi more than he does.
perhaps it was because i was his only grandchild before he passed away.
i missed u, my grandpa.
i tot i found someone who love mi like u do.
but unfortunately.
it's a wrong move.
u r e onli one hu realli love mi.
n i really misses u alot.

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boo!!

ytd went 2 take acupuncture photos wif ratna. she came all e way from her house to e clinic near my house. so nice of her. lolx. we told e acupuncturist to pretend to poke e needles as we took photos. den unknownly or i think accidentally. she pushed one of e needles into ratna's hand. Surprisingly. she din feel anything. n later i found out. she actually din noe bout it. ha. CONCLUSION: acupuncture is really painless. after dat went toa payoh interchange for lunch. n visit e singapore chung hwa medical institution. BUT. it's close on sunday. i feel so dumb 4 notnoeing it in e fers place. ha. sorry for making ratna to make a long way there. Sorry.

went shopping at last nite. ha. happened some super embarassed situation. i cun blief my cousin hu is only P4 has cup size B. is liked so humiliating for mi la. wa. somemore. my aunt was liked keeping suan-ing mi lo.lolx. oh den e aunty selling those bras said: gal. u shld eat more papaya. -.-

hm. super not willing to go sku today. i am sho tired la! but got consultation wif miss peh for O's english so die die also mus go loh. coz my ec will be there too. lolx. n congrats mi. i have got his no. woo hoo. haha. actually also no big deal la.

sometime i wonder wads e purpose of being good to everyone? it seems liked is nothing to dem. n how cum i am always e one at fault. well. atleast to some ppl. i am always e one hu apologise. actually i dun even noe is my fault not. is e problem is wif mi. i dun mind to give you a hundred or thousand sorries. but sometime. it may not be my fault u noe? i said sorry to round up e whole situation. n no one give a darm. FINE!

anyway. my class chalet is on this week end. Exciting! lolx. looking forward sia.

last but not least. HAPPY HARI RAYA PUASA! lolx. enjoy yr holiday.

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another boring day of mine

actually wanted to go east coast de. but mama said got haze so forbit us to go. haix.
so in e end. we decided to go suntec.
ha. cut my hair n my aunt tried to wash my hair for me. i was liked trying to struggle n escape la. lolx. think e ppl in e saloon mus b laughing at mi. ha.
yeah. got lots of stuff haven do. InR. n assignment frm miss peh. haix. to promo over can slag le. somewhat not true leh.

hm. noe dat quite a lot of ppl will b retained. i hope their appeal can b approved. i hate 2 c anyone leaving bhind. wif dat i dun mind giving them some of my marks. haix. all e best den.

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have been doing pw for e last few days. rushing thru the OP. n today is the rehearsal.
i am super nervous lo. dis can b easily seen from my shaky hand la. lolx. well. i have never been good at doing presentation. so expectedly got low marks loh. ha.

finally receive my prezzie from stir. it's sho pretty! i love u all babes. thanks for the piggy toilet roll. ha. dose photos reminded my days in cc. i was telling stir how i missed the days we used to have. suddenly got e urge to mit everyone n hug dem all.

gee. i saw my ec playing bb AGAIN! lolx. so happy =p

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haix. today i did something veh bad to someone. n i am really guilty n sorry bout it. sorry.

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Gong rock!!!

i am still sick. coughing n sneezing non-stop. think something is really wrong wif mi. my heartache more frequently now. in e past onli occasionally. haix. i am sickly. my immue system liked breaking down now. my mum was liked,' gal, how cum u always cough one ar? always sick de'. wah lao. i dun wan 2 b sick de ma. if got choice. i rather b healthy n happy.

ha. my wish now: GET WELL SOON!

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ha. jus finished watching princess hours. it is SUPER nice. lolx

anyway. today release result of promo.

Here r my result:
General Paper: 46/100 (E) ha. i am glad to pass. lolx.
Mathematics: 73.5 (A) a bit expected.
Chemistry: 70.7 (A) i really tot i will fail like hell. but guess. lady luck is beside mi.


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mi now alone at home. jus quarrel wif my dad.

when i cried. he used 2 be dere 4 mi. but now. things change.
i cry alone n suffer alone.

i need someone wif a lending shoulder. i am tired...

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Happie Birthday Sandhya!!! ha. stay crazy n CRAZY!!! lolx.

i am sick again. having headache and soar throat. haiz.

anyway. went to a talk in bio polis. the buildings there r named by biology terms such as genomes, matrix, chromos n centros. so interesting der. the talk lasted bout 4 hours plus. most of the time i dun understand wad the speaker is talking bout. cause dey seems to mumble to themselves. or maybe i am a little deaf. ha.

after that went bugis wif lao gong to meet cheryl for lunch. seem like i am always stuck to onli qin lei. i still rmb dat time during the CIP day. i also went dinner wif her. then, today also. ha. i think my ba zi crash wif my classmates. lolx.

went to swensen.3 of us actually spend 48.40 all together. See? we got big appetite.ha.

hm. like veh long nv go bugis le. think e last time i went was wif him. so got a lot of memory sia. if we got to go out. most prob we will go bugis. ha. i also dunno how i got through for these 4 months. i was super shock when i scored pretty well 4 e mid yr. cause i din realli study much. i jus dunno how to cope my life without him. but. see? i am doing so well now. =p

hm. sort of grow up. or rather i realised that dere r a lot of ppl hu still care a lot for mi. ppl like MJ, sandhya n my dearest LAO GONG, my stir, wt, sh, sy, mus!!!! muackx. lurve them so much.

monday is coming. but dun worry ppl. i believe ur whole class will be promoted. woo hoo!=p

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today is NANYANG OPEN HOUSE!

ha. i was helping miss ding wif shameera, lydia, ravleen n tomato at the reception area in the front gate. tomato is so nice to stay back wif us. hmm. ur job was to get the sec sch students to register for the lucky draw n gave them the goodies bags. inside got bottle, notepad n brochure. it was a chaos when there were so many students at the same time as they came by the shuttle bus. ha. saw a lot of my juniors. it feels so nice to see people wearing cc uniform. gee. make me think of the memory in my sec sch days. esp nice one wif him. lolx. (there i am, dreaming again).
yeah. den i realised a lot of them came from beatty. i mean A LOT! n i realised a lot of people have name with initiate starting with A. eg, anna, andy.. bla bla.. n yesh. i saw alot of pretty babes n girls. ops. sad to sad. not much handsome dubes. lolx.

oh. i did something veh veh veh embarassing. an ny teacher came to me n ask whether is it have to register. so i nodded then shove him a pencil n the piece of paper.ha. den i asked him to register. lolx. n i looked blindly at him. n then i noticed he got a name tag. ha.then he said, do i look like sec sch kid. i immediately burst into laughter k?. ha

so nice of miss ding to buy a small wooden clip for mi. n my dear tomato. is nice k? lolx.

my ec playing bb again. dis time i got wave bye bye. oh. so exciting so exciting!



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0635 won!!!

lolx.we won the rice thingy. 1st leh. our piece shows two butterflies flying in the darkness. veh veh nice . qin lei cheryl n yossy r indeed veh pro. i was more a trouble than i help. firstly, i mistook e colours of the wings. then, the paper connecting to the bottle sort of fell out. 1/4 of the rice jus flowed out lo. den i din cover enough rice. haix. i felt so guilty. but luckily we won. $40 swensen voucher. ha. we shall share with my beloved class.

went j8 wif lydia, ratna SP n yansee for lunch. we keep crapping. ha. yansee said she wanted to help mi prepare my funeral lo. wad ju hua (chrysanthemum) from the toilet, den the paper AA bra. ha. so lame can. but i seriously got think of my own funeral. i wanted to have a plain n simple funeral. it will be even better if the theme is white. i hope my ash will be scattered in the ocean cause i love the seas n beaches ( i noe this will contribute to water pollution, but one in a life time ma. ha ha.). my mum said young ppl hu died early should not hold a funeral. so i guess my mum may jus shove mi into the burner. lolx.

hm. tml is NY open house. n i am proud to be a nycians! lolx. decided to help miss ding since i got nothing much to do gor gz. heh heh. can c my juniors but i think they will not cum. cause they r really clever n smart n i believe dey will choose the top jcs. ha. so fast one yr le. i can still rmb last yr i went ny open house wif stir, him n wt. lolx. is so fun as we rushed from school to school.

ha. miss Seah said most of us passed our maths. i am glad n happy but doubt i can get an A. haix. wad i am really worried about is my H1 subjects n my chem. on monday, they will release the results at one go. my god. it will be a big shock for mi i guess. got to prepare lots of tissues and tissues. haix.

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the first sentence i spoke when i woke up today is ' huh? so early?'
lolx. its been 5 straight days since i woke up before 9. so this morning i am super blur and s l o w.

hm. went to school today to do PW. ur group is the 1st group which miss gopal go through with. so after that we were pretty free. hence we decided to watch movie. me n mervis had a hard time choosing and finally decide on the day after tomorrow. theres no new or latest movie in the library. thus we got limited options lo. lolx. due to time constraint. we onli watch1 dics. n hor. as i was having a BAD headache. i wasn't concentrating on the movie lah. guess most of the time i am dreaming. afterall. i have watch that movie before. so miss out anything also nevermind.

n ya. he was in the library too. can see he smile n laugh more without mi wif him. so i guess he is really a lot happier wifout mi.

tml will be participating in the 'rice' competition. i dunnoe wad is it called but i noe it is a tradition of indians. i hope i dun ruin the entire piece. ha.

i din touch any gu zheng for today practise. lolx. we were planning for ur gz tee, bbq and gifts for ur seniors.n today den i realised gz not involved in open house. 3 of my friends r performing. they r e pros lo. me=lousy better dun dui guzheng's face..

lolx. i saw my ec playing bb again.

GONG, my princess hour is super nice. ha. i dun mind watching it over n over again. it's the dream of many to be a princess and win the heart of the prince. so i am also one of them. lolx.

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hm. been slacking for the past few days.

ytd went raja's house to do pw.. her room is super neat.. ha.. n i discover that she loves green alot.. lolx.. yeah. btw. i did a good deed. at toa payoh bus xchange dere. i actually have e hrt 2 bring a blind uncle to e coffee shop he wanted to go. ha. see? i am sharing my lurve wif everyone on this earth. so nice of mi. okie. i think i can hear someone saying i am so bhb..

actually no la.. i jus wan someone to help mi too if i am blind..

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haix. another lonely day at home.my mum dun allow mi to watch qiang wei zhi lian. she scared that my brother n cousins will be distracted as they are still having their end of year exam.everyone get to enjoy n go out after promo. n wad am i doing? resting at home. i tried to ask ppl to go out. but they are pretty busy. so thats how i spent my days after promo.n hor. no one asked mi out also la. so der slag at home lo.haix. i feel like an ant among the giants. no one notice my existence.i can still rmb. when i was in sec one. dis gal hold a b'day party.well. not really a party but jus a mini celebration when they go out together n have fun .expected that i wasn't invited.guess wads e reason. she said i always cannot go out wif dem so they doubt dat i can go. therefore they dun even bother to ask mi.haix. can i blames on my parent?they dun allow mi to go out when i was younger. n now i have to ask 4 their permission b4 i can go out.well. on e appearence they may agree to let mi go out. but 4 e rest of the day. dey will give mi a charcoal face.i feel like an animal reared by them. ya. it's not their fault that they want to protect mi.but i am losing my freedom. one day if i were to be let into the wild. i will die.can dey give mi some freedom. these seventeen years of mine are being controlled by them.mj said i should fight for my rights. i tried for e past 5 years. but it was fruitless.well ppl. i can even count the no of movies i have watched in these 5 years. no more than e no of my toes n fingers.sad argh?haix. so i hope dat by doing well in my examination. den perhaps dey will give mi more freedom.ok. i tot i have done pretty well for my mid year.but. theres no change in their attitude towards mi.so well. ok. i want to do better in promo. trying to deceive myself dat ya maybe. they will grant my wish.is impossible for dem to let mi wild. cause in their eyes. i am a 4 year old gal who can be easily tempted by jus a lollipop.dats why i envied ppl hu can go out s n when dey want. u all dunnoe how fortunate u r.

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YEAH!!!!

promo finally over le.. time for fun n enjoyment.. ha..
din go out ytd in e end.. instead.. stay at home to give tuition.. my cousin got more confused after my explanation.. lolx.. think i am not a gud teacher..
oh.. wanted to go out tml.. but everyone seem to be veh busy.. haix.. poor me.. got to stuck at home wif my beloved mum..
gee.. btw.. happie mooncake festival.. =p

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hee.. one more day to go.. n PROMO will be over.. woo hoo.. ha.. i am mad..

okie.. today chem paper is easy.. but den i dun think can help mi pass overall.. haix.. nevermind.. wad done has been done.. oh.. tml is bio p1.. hope is not too diff ya..

actually ask our class peep wan to watch movie tml.. but..
no one answer mi.. sobx sobx.. haix.. must be the influence from the tomato.. ppl start to ignore mi sia.. lolx..

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YEAH!!!!
my cousins are back.. i mss their voice n chubby faces.. imagine we din't see each other for nearly one week.. gosh.. seem liked i cun live wifout them arh.. lolx.. all in all.. i am so glad they return.. ha ha ha...
hmm. think i make a mistake.. yah.. he din have a new gal.. but he seem to be veh close to a lot of gals arg.. ha.. all e best to him n hope he can find the one he truly love.. yah..
tml is chem paper 1 n 2.. my onli chance to score for a pass.. jia you jia you jia you..
thursday is the final paper.. i am so excited.. wan to watch movie.. but mus see anyone free not.. also want to celebrate liked hell.. opps.. think that i 4get that i still got O's.. lolx.. still got one month to go.. i will also jia you de.. ha.. think i super high today.. mama was liked giving mi that wads-wrong-with-you face..
oh ya.. i feel likea relationship professor.. ppl cum to mi n ask mi how to solve their so called relationship probs.. er hem.. ppl.. mus rmb i cun even manage my previous relationship.. -.- well.. hope my advices can help u all in one way or another den.. or maybe.. when i grow up.. i shall open a matchmaker company.. HA HA HA..

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heh he.. forget to add.. i saw my ec playing bb.. so charming sia..

ha.. i m not interesting in my ec k? jus think he veh cute.. ec is for looking onli la..

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today got bio n econs test.. bio test is diff but think can pass .. ha.. fers time do bio can feel sense of satisfaction.. heh heh.. hmm.. econs source based question was quite diff.. but hope can pass.. if not i wun be able 2 pass 2 H1 le.. still got chem n bio to go.. jia you! oh ya.. heard from qin lei.. miss Seah said she was disappointed by ur result.. guess we din do veh well arg.. ha.. today have breakfast wif my laogong n mj.. ha.. end up crapping more den studying.. n hot cakes are super nice!!! =p yeah.. today econs test actually same room wif him la.. but since e last time i saw him holding that gal hand.. mi jiu tell myself stop thinking bout him.. hehe.. so luckily not really distracted during my paper.. ya.. i am sick again.. sneeze non-stop n perspire non stop.. quite fortunate to fall sick onli at end of my promo..

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today got bio n econs test.. bio test is diff but think can pass .. ha.. fers time do bio can feel sense of satisfaction.. heh heh.. hmm.. econs source based question was quite diff.. but hope can pass.. if not i wun be able 2 pass 2 H1 le.. still got chem n bio to go.. jia you! oh ya.. heard from qin lei.. miss Seah said she was disappointed by ur result.. guess we din do veh well arg.. ha.. today have breakfast wif my laogong n mj.. ha.. end up crapping more den studying.. n hot cakes are super nice!!! =p yeah.. today econs test actually same room wif him la.. but since e last time i saw him holding that gal hand.. mi jiu tell myself stop thinking bout him.. hehe.. so luckily not really distracted during my paper.. ya.. i am sick again.. sneeze non-stop n perspire non stop.. quite fortunate to fall sick onli at end of my promo..

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