xiii: you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Wednesday, June 30, 2010
time:9:41 PM

all I want was a simple break*

and yet I ended up with broken friendship.

they said they don't blame me.

but I can understand how they feel.

disappointed. *sorry guys*

and my parents.

been ignoring me since that night.

and the fact that I want a trip worsen our relationship.

I know they are worried for my safety.

but their girl here is already 21. when can they understand? haiz.

anyway. I officially switched to a part timer le.

so yupx. very FREE now.

projects every day. I am beginning to like the long MRT ride.

because of my new found partner. (:

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title:
date: Tuesday, June 29, 2010
time:9:53 PM

my world is falling apart*

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date: Thursday, June 24, 2010
time:7:45 AM

i see you as a brave girl,

it is difficult,

but as from what i saw,

you are doing really well.

If times really get that worse.

come to find your roomie here.

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i requested to quit my job because of BS901

but wei wei seems to be really reluctant, so much so that she changed me to a part timer.

so that i can still work as and when i am free.

which means i will still have an income until Sep*

pretty thankful for that (:

my family is my priority.

but its getting too much.

i tot they understand why i had stay out late that night,

it wasn't for fun and party-ing.

they sounded that i enjoyed staying at the function.

their explanation is SO unreasonable.

since roomie's mum incident, i told myself to love my parents more.

and dun take them for granted.

i tot i did a good job as a daughter.

but in their eyes, i am never good enough.

the only thing i hide from them is KC,

everything's else, i put them as my #01
curfew's ten. and i will rush home b4 that.

Sunday's family day, i will try not to go out.

i never deny their requests for anything and everything

aren't i doing enough? ):

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date: Sunday, June 20, 2010
time:10:40 PM

当我没有利用价值后

我也被你遗弃了

所谓的朋友

也不过如此

可悲.

我试着让自己相信你的友谊

做不到.

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random-ing again.

lots of things happen recently.

TREASURE.

thats one of the things i learnt.

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date: Friday, June 18, 2010
time:10:37 PM

yihao came and companied me for lunch (: YIPEE*

[off day]

went mhc AGAIN. yes. AGAIN.

they should revamp their system so that i don't have to go back three times on three separate day =.=

to pick up the form, to return the form and to give me a letter

all this can be done in a day if they really want.

met up with dear (L)

and finally GIRLFRIENDS' meeting and meet the BF session! (:

esther brought her bf along

so so so HAPPY for her(:

besides that, its pretty rare that the 5 of us can get together.

next time we would have BF n GFs' gathering. exciting**

simply can't resist 小笼包.

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date: Thursday, June 17, 2010
time:12:05 AM

so nice!

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date: Sunday, June 13, 2010
time:10:03 PM

平静的水面

稍有风浪

我这个木船

就会翻掉.

不要这样对我

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date: Friday, June 11, 2010
time:11:10 PM

great chat with ROOMIE today(:

work was pretty boring as there were only 4 patients.

easy and smooth job today except the printer and desktop stop working twice.

zzz..

was told that next mon-wed and friday are project days.

goodness. i am sure weiwei wun give me the off dates de ):

work or project? i am not willing to give up any one.

tot that i will be able to juggle both.

but then. it seems impossible.

i love the job, something related to what i am studying and easy stuff.

and best of all. the income(:

and i had to do this project, something that i have promised since start of semester and an exchange for a Hong Kong holiday trip in august.

guess i might have to sacrifice the work in the end):

DIDI went to do body check for NS

and was found that he has heart problem ):

got to go see a cardiologist

I got so worried that I feel restless even up till now.

I hate to be so paranoid

even mummy was saying probably nothing much de.

please let him be okie. I can't afford to lose him.

FORESEE EMO WEEK AHEAD. *BEWARE*

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date: Thursday, June 10, 2010
time:9:36 PM

Gonna be at the serangoon outlet for the next two week(:

looking forward to finish work at 8. wee~~

finally started project ytd.

feels weird back in school again

and i wonder why are there so much ppl when its HOLIDAY now!

managed to start culturing the parasites in the juicy juicy blood(:

不是我不明白　這樣並不算太壞
懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋　沒對他坦白　你還在

會進來嗎　你在送我回家我還在猜測
可都是真的了
再見面前　一直想像還有某種關聯
但客氣　是拒絕

新的朋友　不再重疊
你的世界　我在邊緣

不是我不明白　這樣並不算太壞
能再次關懷　時間洗刷所有不愉快
後來的愛　我們嘗試去寬待
懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋　沒對他坦白　你還在

沒說分手　終於是能開玩笑的朋友
不是不難過的
多少年了　我想過能夠和你一起老的
卻都有別人了

新的朋友　不再重疊
我的世界　你在邊緣

不是我不明白　有些話沒說出來
能再次關懷　時間洗刷所有不愉快
後來的愛　我們嘗試去寬待
懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋(沒有)　沒對他坦白　你還在

不是我不明白　說悲哀並不應該
我們的關懷　像愛但又說不上愛
沒有後來　我們才學會愛
但現在　說來感慨　不是那個未來
我們說好的　不會更改的　你會在
不是我不明白　　

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date: Monday, June 07, 2010
time:10:00 PM

date with bf(:

I love the cuddling

and every little thing bout you. love*

haiz. project meeting on wednesday.

really hope that wei wei can give me an OFF. ):

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date: Sunday, June 06, 2010
time:10:50 PM

dinner with KIMBERLU and yihao(:

thanks for waiting

i love the little chat we had

and the scenery that we get to enjoy.

when i am off. lets go eat CRABBIE.

and thx yihao for fetching me home! (:

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date:
time:10:28 AM

HANDSOME NEH~

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date: Saturday, June 05, 2010
time:10:06 PM

i kind of like my job

except that it took up too much of time.

haiz.

and my off dates are set on project dates. ):

i need some time for myself.

there's no need to avoid me.

i tot that the fact i told you

means something can be done.

make me forget. will you.

if not.

i will make myself forget the past.

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date: Friday, June 04, 2010
time:10:57 PM

teck whye tml. pengz*

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date: Thursday, June 03, 2010
time:10:36 PM

五月初五的水是纯阳水. (16/06/2010)

所以不妨在那天的12nn

到游泳池游泳.

或把水拿到户外晒一个钟左右,

然后清洗身体.

会改善身体(:

i think i will miss my trainer once i am assigned to other outlet.

and the patients T.T

I am really a GEMINI.

sometimes i dun even noe myself.

wad do i really wan.

i envy ppl who pursue their dream and hope

and i know ppl who did it.

what is my future?

my dream?

i am clueless.

what exactly i wanna fulfill in this life of mine?

what is my purpose to be alive?

to be my daddy's girl forever (:

and FRIENDS FOREVER ?

HAPPILY EVER AFTER ?

*grow up please, you dun live in a fairy tale*

well. maybe being a daddy's girl is the more practical among the three.

i am always doing it.

curfew at 10

seems unreasonable

but i am trying my best to be one good daughter.

sunday's a family day.

i always turn down meet up with friends

(: i do love my family a lot

but i still long for 'FRIENDS FOREVER' N 'HAPPILY EVER AFTER'

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title:
date: Wednesday, June 02, 2010
time:10:46 PM

tml is my chinese birthday! (:

mummy's gonna cook me red wine chicken tml! *happy*

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date:
time:9:51 PM

swollen right eye* ):

I like the lecturer today.

learnt a lot of things also.

形象很重要.

因为你不知道几时你会碰到你的贵人.

所以女生应该要随时都要在好准备

因为只有做好准备的人

才会得到机会的眷顾

她也说女人不单要穿高跟鞋

还要戴耳环

因为这样一来走路才会好看

她也说我们都不应该喝太多阴阳水.

譬如lemon tea

喝太多会胸部平. T.T

我想我真的喝太多了

还有化装是人与人的沟通

(: 所以在这三个月

我会尝试天天化装.

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date: Tuesday, June 01, 2010
time:11:26 PM

(: i am getting better and better at packaging of the medicines

growing to love this job

though sometimes i will be left stoning cause theres nothing for me to do

while sometimes i feel like a house wife,

cleaning, mopping, sweeping everywhere~

i love my colleague there

shes a funny MUMMY to her kids.

and i was amazed by how the doctors together with her can crapped all the way till the next patient comes in

they were totally into the idea of (在大学的生涯里一定要谈恋爱啦)

haha. oh well. to think their kids are already as old as me

(: if only my parents can be that open minded.

despite of that, i still love them. ( excluding the curfew part)

you took me for granted. why should i care then?

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date:
time:8:00 AM

to my dear aein:

we do have tons of things to chat about every night don't we? (:

love the tiny talk session that we have!!

you are one great wonderful girl!

.我们是幸福的.

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